climax

So the other night, we spent the later part of the evening with a new friend on Kivunim. We ended up on a porch doing a creative sharing deal where people read their poetry or sang a song they wrote or something. We also learned a little bit about Kivunim and what they do and it sounds like it really is a great program. 

But one kid was reading his poem, and both Eliana and I (from opposite ends of the porch) reacted to it in the same way. He spoke on wanting to live his life to the fullest, to never be comfortable, to "climax" in life constantly and always experience new, etc. And both Eliana and I found it naive. 

Three months ago, I probably would have said something very similar to what this kid is feeling, but after these 2 and a half months, I've lost it. And we didn't understand each other because I want to be ok with sitting on the couch and reading a book all day or watching tv shows online instead of being out and exploring and "living" all of the time. And we are where we are because we have to seize all of our opportunities or in a sense fail this year. In some ways, I think it is harder to be comfortable with being comfortable, but is also tiring to constantly need stimulation and experiences when your whole life is your own. 

And as Eliana and I continued this conversation on the way home, I realized, that being comfortable is not some sly evil, it's being able to hug your mother when you have had a very hard day. 

It's being able to bring your father gatorade the morning after he starts chemotherapy for the second time.